Losing it. **

01 May 2008
**Please note that the title of this post is shamelessly stolen from the brilliant LisaLou, whom I adore, even if she is a skinny running bitch.

So, this is me. And the me that I want to be. Well, be polite... say hi to both of these girls.

I've begun watching what I am eating for the 9 millionth time in my life. I'm trying, and that is all I can ask of myself. It was just like quitting smoking... and I've been happily smoke free for two and a half years now. Sometimes I can't even believe it myself. It was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life and also my proudest accomplishment to date.

So now, it's my weight. When I think of cheering Finnegan on at soccer games, I'm not the fat mom. It makes me irritated to know that we'd like another child and I'm not going to do that until I take this weight off... and honey, let me tell you, I'm not getting any younger so it has to be now.

Plus, as if there needs to be another thing, I've had a very motivational, gorgeous friend who has recently lost (almost) FIFTY pounds. What. an. accomplishment. I mean seriously, when was the last time you did something that difficult?

My husband wants me to be healthy. My family wants me to be healthy. I want to be healthy so I can be here for my grandchildren. You hear that YKW? We're going to be 85 year olds together, rocking on our front porch and finally your cantakerous old man ways will be acceptible. My grandmother is diabetic and my grandfather died of a heart attack. This isn't something I should be screwing around with.

But it's hard. And that is where you all come in. I need your help. Your encouragement. Your support. Your love and well wishes.


Amy said...

GO M!!! I'll be your workout buddy any time. :)

Amanda said...

You can do this! If you quit smoking then this will be a BREEZE! Seriously, M, You can do this. You fucking rock...If you need help, support, guidance or anything just let me know! Im here for you!!

Kelly said...

I 3th the other gals...YOU CAN DO THIS!! I'm around anytime you need a walking buddy! =0)

Jackie said...

Awesome! You have the determination and attitude to do this. I wish I could be there to walk with you. But we can always talk on the phone while you walk on flat streets and I have to walk up a mountain (seriously that's all there is here). Goodluck and remember how beautiful and super cool you are!

AnnMarie said...

Aw, you made me smile :)
You can do this M!!! I'm so there for you!! :)

Lisa Marie said...

Hells yeah M, if any of us can do it you can! Youre like our mama hen and are always there to kick our asses so we are here for you. :) Whenever you need anyone to walk with Holler!!! We can have our Walking Nights!!! Just walking and talking, we all know we're all pretty good at that!!! lol Good for you!!

Grace said...

When you put your mind to things, you accomplish things. And you will accomplish this. Eating well and exercising is key. Once you get started and have a routine, it will all flow in no time. When it is part of your daily routine, you feel incomplete without it. I am always here for a chat, may a recommend a hands free gadget for your phone, because when you are holding on to the phone, your arm won't be moving and you will get a cramp.

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