Angry.

04 August 2010
There are days that I am just pissed.

Angry.

Mad at life.

Why?  No reason really and usually going to bed usually resets my internal bitch back to normal.

It's like magic really.

Last night it didn't work.  I'm hoping that another night's sleep will bring the magic.

I don't like feeling like I want to beat someone up, but it's even more annoying when there isn't a real reason behind it.  It's just a bunch of little stuff all piled up. 

As of Tuesday night my husband had already worked 44 hours this week.  Yes.  You read that correctly.  It sucks having to comfort a three year old that would only like to have his daddy around, doing daddy things.  I want him around doing husband things, like making out with me and grilling burgers with a beer in his hand. 

I have a few people in my life right now that are very skilled at not reciprocating the 'being there' portion of our relationship.  Guess what?  I think you're an asshole.  Guess what else?  I'd still be there if you needed me because I am not an asshole. 

My sister is going back to college on Sunday.  I can't tell you how much I will miss her.  I'm pretty sure she doesn't want help moving this year since last year I started the ugly cry right there in front of her dorm.     

Everytime I go to Walmart I see pregnant teenagers and it makes me cry like an idiot.  It sucks to want and be ready for a baby and not be able to have one. 

My house is pretty much one big "to do" list right now, I blame the adult ADD {that I have self diagnosed and probably don't really have} it is more like I don't know where to start some days.  I'm not sure where all of this stuff came from.  People, please quit buying us stuff I don't want to clean it up.

Finn is sick and I feel badly that on top of missing his daddy, there is nothing I can do to make him feel better. 

Whiny bitchy miserable people annoy me. 

The irony?  Not lost on me.

I have it good.  I know this.  But there are days that suck that come with the good. 

Just keeping it real.

16 comments:

Deb said...

I love this post. Not because you are feeling that way, but because you actually admit that you are. Kudos to you for being real. Sorry your little guy is sick!

Hopefully tomorrow will look better.

Ashley said...

You know what? I'm an asshole. Really and truly.

On the upside, things that cheer me up are exercise (feel free to smack me for that one), shopping, and alcohol. Feel free to indulge in all three as much as needed. Rinse and repeat.

Michelle said...

Ashley, you are the best bloggy BFF ever, you are not an asshole.

ausurfer said...

Hi. I came across your blog using Stumbleupon. It's late here in Brisbane, Australia (11:40pm Wed 4 Aug), and I'm relaxing by surfing the web to places unknown.
You know what? I think you'll find that most of us have days like you are experiencing...and as Deb (comment #1) said, what makes this post stand out is the fact that you are honest and admitting how you are feeling.
Anyway, looks like you've got a lot to do, so I won't make this a long post.
Cheers from Brisbane, Australia.
Kim

~*Jess*~ said...

Aw Michelle. I'm sorry! I hope you have a better day but DAMN 44 hours is a lot. That sucks ass.

I'm here! And I'll play Family Feud with you any day. And you can chat with me on Gmail :)

michele said...

ach. i hate those days. i must say though that i LOVE ashley's suggestions LOL.....i ALWAYS feel better after a good run, a good margarita, and some retail therapy :) here's to tomorrow looking up for you!!

becki said...

Love you, love your show.
You're a doll and I'm sad you're sad, and mad. I really liked the a--hole part. I know a few myself. If the magic doesn't come tomorrow I think you might actually need to junk punch someone, you know, just to let it all out.

Chin up ;)

Jackie said...

Sorry for the anger. I hope I am not in a-hole pile because I really want to see you:)

Feel better.

Kelly T said...

Somedays I just have a "day" as I call it. Just blah. Tuesday was a day for me :(

Jessica @ Acting Adult said...

Talking about it sometimes helps.. but I hope tonight's sleep "resets" you and makes you feel better. I'm sorry about all the work and a sick toddler! That sounds like no fun at all. Is there an end in sight?

Noelle said...

*hugs* I hope Finny feels better. Matilda is still on the mend.

Sorry if you feel like I fall into the a*hole category. I'm here if you need to vent or if you want to tell me off for something that I should have been a better friend about.

Rebecca D said...

I totally get what you mean... Thank you for being real enough to say it...
PS... If "sleep reset" doesn't work, try "chocolate reset" or "doughnut & over-priced coffee reset" or whatever works for you...

Elise said...

I may be in the asshole category too and I AM SORRY because you do everything and more for me and ILOVEYOUUUUUU!!!!!

Courtney said...

Amen sister, sorry you are having a rough day...I had one of those yesterday too...I'll be thinking of you and sending good vibes your way! I know I've never met you personally, but your blog always cracks me up when I need a lift. So, in turn, can I lift your spirits by sending you some Buckeye inspired earrings?

Courtney said...

P.S. - shoot me your address (courtney@courtneyrian.com) & I'll throw them in the mail... :)

Stacey said...

I hear you on those days. Ugh. They suck.

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