Want to know a secret? I have NO idea what I am doing.

20 June 2011

Motherhood.  Dressing in something other than yoga pants... and I’m not just talking about “pregnant Michelle” here.  Being an amazing wife.  Friendships.  Carrying on an intelligent conversation with an actual adult.  Getting a good night’s sleep.  Exercising enough.  Being a good daughter.  Housekeeping.  Accomplishing my dreams.  Even figuring out what my dreams exactly entail can be a challenge some days.  Not yelling.  Cooking.  Being an innovative blogger.  Naming a baby.

Maybe once in a blue moon I’ll have a day where I feel successful in three of those at one time.  Most of the time, I feel like I’m doing great in one area and really fucking up the rest.  

Go on ahead and add ‘swears too much’ to the list.

If we’re being honest here, even getting a shower in some days is tough.

I sometimes feel like I know what I’m doing… but then, I realize I have no clue. 

None.  Zippo.  Zilch.  Nada.

Do you?  And if you do, can you fill me in on the secret?


Tricia said...

I have no f-ing clue (add "can't even swear with conviction" to the list)! I feel like a complete loser a lot of the time and since I'm closing in on 40, that feels more than a little pathetic. I keep thinking that--one day--I'll get my act together, but I have a feeling it probably isn't going to be today.

You're not alone! At least you can blame your state of mind on pregnancy hormones. I may look like I'm pregnant, but...no such luck!

I hope that you have a great day. It's only 7:16 so I'm still hopeful. I've already had a shower so I think that I can count today as a success, right? :)

Unknown said...

OMG! I feel the same way! I think I need to find balance but how can I do that when there's a million other things to do and figure out.
Hope you have a wonderful week;)

MommyLisa said...

Ugh. Yeah....its all a big blur some days.

the cape on the corner said...

the swears too much part is my favorite. you can't ask a pessimist if there's some sort of "together" secret and expect a good answer.

deborah said...

the secret is....we are all making it up as we go along. if someone tells you otherwise? they are a lying sack of crap. and they are the worst kind of lying sacks of crap. the kind that are arrogant with their ignorance. ugh. i'm feeling a little superior with myself today, with getting a shower in before dinner (does it show?) ;) btw, my yoga pants haven't spotted a bit of yoga....ever.

Karen said...

What's this "shower" you speak of? I'm still trying to master peeing by myself.

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