Two years ago, I was seven and a half weeks pregnant with Tate after a whole crazy fertility journey that took more out of Dave and I than I care to admit. We had told a handful of people. We were planning on telling our families on Thanksgiving.
I took my Meme to the store to shop for her famous stuffing ingredients. I was happily making plans to put together the tables. I couldn’t wait to hit the stores for Black Friday.
The morning before Thanksgiving, I woke up and things didn’t feel right. I thought it was pregnancy nausea. Finn had crawled into bed with me that morning when Dave left for work and had fallen back asleep. I made it ten steps to the bathroom before figuring out that something was very very wrong.
I was on the floor seconds after having that thought.
A lot of the details are fuzzy after that and it is just now gotten to the point that Dave and I can talk about it. Before, when I’d ask, he’d get that uncomfortable tone that meant he’d curtly answer my questions and he didn’t want to re-live any of it.
I screamed for Finn. He was three at the time, he stayed really calm even though I could tell he was upset. He brought me the phone and I managed to dial Dave.
In hindsight, I should have just dialed 9-1-1, but I remember thinking they would have had to breakdown the door because Finn didn’t know how to open the lock and I didn’t know what they would do with Finn. I don’t remember any of what I said to Dave on the phone, but he said that he knew something was wrong as soon as I started talking. He left work and sped home, calling my mom and then my RE {fertility doc} on the way.
I either passed out on the phone with him or right after. Then, I managed to crawl into the shower. Again, hindsight that was the stupidest thing I could have done, but I thought icy water would prevent me from passing out again. That wasn’t the case apparently because when Dave got home, that is where he found me. The doctor’s office told him to get me to the hospital immediately.