When I don’t want to do something, I have a really hard time starting. When I’m stressed. When I’m tired. When I am embarrassed, angry, and overwhelmed. It is easier to hide or immerse myself in something mindless, have you played Trivia Crack? My mostly rational mind is clued into the fact that this is a by-product of the ADD, but my overwhelmed reaction (ding ding ding, also the ADD) sees it as a series of hurdles.
And you know my booty isn’t making it over any hurdles.
The thing is, it bothers me, being away from here as much as I have been, but there are some other things I needed to spend my energy on. It’s kind of like that put your own oxygen mask on, then your kids’ when the reality is you’re going to see their face and put their mask on first. And I did, but it’s also a bullshit cop out excuse too. Because everyone knows in the crazy airline demonstrations, doing that just makes you pass out while your kids are fine. I’m pretty sure mine would just poke me with a stick because they want a snack.
Coming back for a quickie “hi, how are ya,” in the midst of all of that, seemed like kind of a jackass thing to do. So, I just didn’t. I would be like that friend who just shows up unannounced to your party, because you put it on Facebook. Sure, you forgot that friend wasn’t under your ‘acquaintance’ list, they aren’t really invited, if we’re being honest but, they still show up and make it all awkward. Yep. That about sums it up.
Ooooh, is that Chex mix?
And, no, I’m not going to talk about it just yet, the other stuff, but I will. Probably. Just not right now. << I also hate when people do things like that, WHO does that? Annoying people, on your acquaintance list, that’s who. But, you already know that.
Unless you’re new.
In which case, um, hi, I’m Michelle, you can totally come sit by me. I’ll probably even be back here tomorrow. Maybe.
I am pressing the re-start button. While crossing my fingers it doesn’t crash the system.
What’s new with you?